Don’t let me forget this. Don’t let me change this. Don’t let me ignore this.
I got the answer I needed that night in July, and it told me everything I needed to know. What this job was going to do to me.
I subbed today and it just reminded myself of everything that I actually want to do with my life.
I told the teachers at the school I subbed at, I told mom, I told one of my best friends from work.
Rain or shine. Next August. I’m quitting this job. I’ll either sub full time, maybe I’ll have another job (doubt it), or, the goal, I will be moving to Chicago with $6k+ in my savings to have 10 months of bills saved up.
This is my map I’ve been writing about. This is the border I’ve been dreaming of. I have basically one more year to get through, and then it’ll be another new chapter.
This last one I think closed with a burn out. But I survived. And I will survive this next one.
Because the one after is going to be so fucking great I can taste it.
Let’s do this.