Tuesday, March 18th: You know I already said goodnight but I can’t get this thought out of my mind: that life isn’t just a nice little neat package of written chapters delivered into your lap… but I can’t help but wonder what spring has in store this year.
Wednesday, July 16th: I got triggered on my way home I’m sitting in my car crying I don’t know I don’t know it was the highway I’m scared I don’t
Friday, July 18th: I got off that highway as fast as I could and I slowly drove home and cried you guys until you’ve looked inside your own mind and seen something somewhere is so fucking fucked up that against your own will you were going to try and kill yourself…
Friday, July 18th: I am not afraid.
Monday, September 29th: August next year. Rain or shine. I’m moving on.

Don’t let me forget this. Don’t let me change this. Don’t let me ignore this.

I got the answer I needed that night in July, and it told me everything I needed to know. What this job was going to do to me.

I subbed today and it just reminded myself of everything that I actually want to do with my life.

I told the teachers at the school I subbed at, I told mom, I told one of my best friends from work.

Rain or shine. Next August. I’m quitting this job. I’ll either sub full time, maybe I’ll have another job (doubt it), or, the goal, I will be moving to Chicago with $6k+ in my savings to have 10 months of bills saved up.

This is my map I’ve been writing about. This is the border I’ve been dreaming of. I have basically one more year to get through, and then it’ll be another new chapter.

This last one I think closed with a burn out. But I survived. And I will survive this next one.

Because the one after is going to be so fucking great I can taste it.

Let’s do this.

When Republicans talk about morality, they talk about God and redemption. But they don’t mention the immorality of one in five of American children being impoverished, of cuts in food stamps that are causing many to go hungry, and of reduced education funding that’s condemning them to lousy schools. They don’t talk about the immorality of declining worker incomes when corporations are making record profits and CEOs are taking home record pay. They leave out the immorality of billionaires flooding our democracy with money to elect candidates that will make them even richer. We are in a moral crisis but it has nothing to do with private redemption. It is a crisis of public morality, and the redemption of America.